Summer is Over!!

Wow, its been 3 whole months since last wrote anything here. Life is different now and more interesting than ever. I suppose ill just leave this to a few random notes on life.. but first, what did I learn this summer?

Love, its our greatest commandment, but its the most enjoyable. While I didn't work at any church or get involved in any organization sort of deal, my ministry was and is the people I work with and socialize with outside of the AGO circle. While God allowed me to enter into the lives of all those people I love and care about, he also taught me something very valuable through these people. "Reality check." I remembered that Jesus was the one who went after those that were different, vile, unwanted or secular. Not those that were trying to live self-righteously. For those of you who actually take the time to read this, thank you! I want to encourage every one of you believers to strive to go beyond having a christian bubble this semester. We need to be friends with non-believers just as much as they need Christ! While some of us may get the idea that were doing our secular friends a favor by being a good influence, keep in mind that we need them as much as they need us. For my self, I do what I can to be an example, but they are also my reality check. God is our ultimate authority in all of our struggles between self-righteousness and the secular life. It is unfortunate that the image of christianity is not very appealing, but with love, we can still show the image of Christ to others.

well, i would post more but its almost 3am. Bye.

Ps: Lets not isolate ourselves and end up grumpy bears.

Summer is here!

Life busy and its all crazy again!
I started summer school Monday and starting next week ill be working at least 30 hours a week. On top of running 4 times a week and trying to maintain a social life surpassing that of last semester its already been a ride and its only going to get crazier if not more interesting. Theres been some garbage in the last few weeks to get past, but who doesn't have to deal with that? anywhoo, im freaking tired. Love one another and be kind to each other.
Hang out with your friends and turn off your phones. spending quality time with the people you are with is far more important than answering phone calls or responding to text if the people that matter are right in front of you.

Remember to first stay close to God.
its always hard to apply..

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all that you do and he will direct your paths." -Prov. 3: 5-6

Memory Verse

Psalm 61: 1-4

"O God, Listen to my cry!

Hear my prayer!
From the ends of the earth,
I will cry to you for help,
for my heart is overwhelmed.
Lead me to the towering rock of safety,
for you are my safe refuge,
a fortress where my enemies cannot
reach me.
Let me live forever in your sanctuary,
safe beneath the shelter of your wings!"

Recently Ive felt like a shipwreck. Sometimes even the smallest things cause the biggest disappointments. Things that shouldn't really even matter count too much. Then I remember how much I've forgotten to be filled by God. Only he can fill me and nothing else. Sometimes all the other junk no matter how good it seems, has to be cut out for the sake of nurturing that strong relationship with him. We'll ultimately find disappointment's and discontent in the people and things we trust in this world, but its taken me 23 years to finally realize, God is it. There is nothing else that can take his place and nothing ever will fill me until the day he decides otherwise. Until then.. I can do anything he wills me to.

whooo hooo

Ive been slacking at putting up a new post, but when your living away from your apartment due to serious jackhammering and plumbing renovations... that may keep me away from my own blogging place for a few days. Tonight I am going to be spending the first night in my apartment since over a week and a half ago. Thank goodness that God has blessed AGO with a house that hobos such as myself can crash. hm.. theres novels I could write about things that have happened since then, but putting it all down would take forever. Im just glad I have God to run to when life is shakey. Yesterday I was thinking about "let that be enough" from Switchfoot. I remembered how broken i've felt and how much I need God to fill me up and nothing else. Anyways, I need to get to bed because something crazy starts in less than 10 hours. Hoowaaa!

red eyes... and a sigh in my expression.

I guess im moving into AGO early. If you walk up to my appartment all youll see my bathtub outside across from my front door right next to the sink and the toilet. Theres plastic lining all over the carpet leading to what used to be the bathroom.. I guess pipeing hasnt even been reached with an entire day of broken walls and jack hammering. we have no running water and our fridge is freezing all of our food. on top of that.. this has been the case for a week.. its only official that conditions are unlivable since jackhammering started. our landlords havent even offered any other place to stay... we dont have a freaking toilet. So ive come to the realization that this is the exact situation I need to get me out of the lease asap.. it just depends how cooperative the landlord will be... there shouldnt be a fine i would hope because after all.. theres no point in living there anymore. i wont even write a check for the rent due in a few days.

if all goes well. ill be living out of my car. and sleeping at the house for the next month. yay.

In other news. running a kids carnival in Tecate wasn't so bad. I wish i could speak Spanish though. Lots of cute kids..they even have better otter pops than we do. The food at los panchos taqueria is ok.. funny how me and Metro were willing to eat there. but i wont even eat at senor panchos back in the states.

Anyways AGO banquet on friday was awesome.. much thanks to all of the seniors and just everyone for being awesome. Chops has a beautiful mustache and I want that monacle. Hangning out with all the other guys who didn't get asked to ADX banquet was cool.. Corvette diner.... what can I say? anyway im up too late.. way too late and i really should work on my paper but i am a procrastinator. I love all of you. and thank you Shox. Im using our computer andyour not even here.

How to trick yourself into thinking its later than it really is.

I think i've figured out how to make my body think its alot later in the day than it really is...or in a good way, think that its not as early as normal. I woke up this morning at 7:15 after going to sleep at 2am. I woke up just for the sole purpose of moving my car from the parking lot next to my apartment to the spot actually for the apartment. and then i had some cereal and OJ. I reset my alarm settings so i could just lay there and hit the snooze button every 15 min.. eventually by 9.. i had to force myself to get up and eat again. Now as I type this.. it feels like its 12pm but its really 9.

It feels horrible because i feel like i will not stop at anything to procrastinate from working on my paper. But then again. it feels good to be awake this early and not feel like im going to collapse.

ahhh.

College student madness

Yay!!

Being a natural procrastinator is not good for me. After having a taste of summer, spring break just made the remainder of school even more unbearable. I've got assignments to do, articles to read and papers to write.. most of which I should've done over a week ago. I missed two online quizzes, slept in twice and got some crazy quiz madness tomorrow. I still have one 20 page chapter to read... before 4am.. A parking ticket i still have to pay. A class to petition. A professor to interview and two research papers to write in the next two weeks.. Its all in addition to getting in some devo time and making time for the frat. Working 20 hrs a week is killer too..
So here I am pulling my first all nighter... ill probably fall asleep on my desk in about an hour or so.. wake up early to get some caffeine and enjoy another day at state. Wooohoooo for being a student.
Dear God,
help me. Please.