and yet more rambling

Ill be soon headin up and away from this beautiful place known as san diego.
Ive got a couple of weeks to hang around my home town. I think ive been
away too long honestly. I love the few friends ive managed to keep in
touch with.. but honestly I have no intention of ever moving back. Theres
too much of a feeling of stagnant atmosphere which I fear will suck me in.
I guess I'm comfortable with the idea of getting on jet planes and flying
hundreds or thousands of miles away because Im running and staying
as far away as i can from that feeling. Somehow, running doesn't feel like
a bad thing. Anyone who knows me can tell that moving was the best
decision Ive ever made for myself.

I made a new home for myself in SD but I feel like I shouldn't be here for too long.
I recently feel like a refugee in this place I live.. not working, just managing to get by
chillin and hangin with whoever doing whatever you can do in this town.
Its not a feeling of stagnation, but a calling of something else. My relationship
with God has grown despite all of the stupid things I do. Maybe Japan is it.
Thats where the real butt kicking, self-discovering and personal/ spiritual growth
will hit me. Of course it is, but im being sarcastic. I can't believe in
half of the things I say.. but I guess its true for me, that not every part of
me is at peace with everything in my life. If you ask me, I am by no means
ready to go anywhere, but I have to. If I don't I would be stuck in one more year of
school still burned out from the last.

What I hope to find in the next few weeks... is peace in what im about to do with my life for
the next year and the passion I once had with languages before school killed it.

ramblerambleramble

Je ne sais pas qu'est-ce que c'est mais je voudrais écrive en français au moment. Probablement je vais au Québec après mon voyage au Japon. Apres que j'ai vu le film Inglourious Basterds je sente parler en Français. Parce-que il y a beaucoup d'Allemagne et Français. A l'avenir j'espère que ja vais trouver mon passion pour les langues étrangères. Au moment je besoin d'étudier le japonais mais les kanjis sont très difficile a souvenir. Mon Dieu, ce langue est plus facile que japonais.

Getting Paid

So... of the five scholarships I applied to, I got one. But the great news is that it was the biggest one too. In order to do my part though, I need to make a new blog... one thats kinda geared towards helping students who in the future plan to study abroad at the same school that I will be going to..
I basically need to make an online journal with writing and videos in both Japanese and English. I really should get on it asap. But i cant come up with a cool name for the new blog... any ideas?